Acceptance is crucial in life

Whatever fuck you come across with, there’s nothing that you’ll have no solution, they say. But still in their very own lifes they still come to a crossroad, thinking of which path to take. You can either stay in that crossroad and wait as long as you can, nobody is going to fuckin tell you what to do,(sorry with the harsh words today, I’m in a boiling mood.) You can wait in that crossroad and die there and still no one is going to give a fuck.Or you can take right turn and go the path, or you can take advise from people you fuckin don’t know and make that left. The best thing in that is you will still end up in another crossroad. Then another then another…just like the Gods is playing fuckin tricks on you, like you are playing tricks on your hamster. Seeking for fuckin approval.

Yep… everybody came across that and yep.. life’s a series of events that will result on how you make decisions in every of those motherfuckers. Life is hard, it’s difficult it’s a hard blow on your nuts but HEY!....It’s life..that’s what everybody says. For me, I came across another formula X to get me through this rough times, it will happen all the time. Fuck time will happen and you are got to believe me. SO why listen or take fuckin advise from fuckin people that don’t know about your llife and still have fuckin problems with their own fuckin life?

Formula X = Accept. Accept every fuckin thing that is happening. That’s the first step for you to keep yourself …to be yourself. If you go highwire..you’re not yourself anymore. You don’t think right, you don’t care about yourself…you will only care about your emotions. Emotions will lead you to disaster.Accept every facts that happen, take a cold decision. That’s the fast and crucial way if you want to get on with your life. What have happen is gone, no point crying over spilled milk. It’s fuckin stupid. Accept and take decision and move forward.

Accept and take decision.

Stay Strong.

Things happen to you to make you realize your true potential, strength, will power, and heart. Have faith and stay strong!

I dedicate this to all of my friends that are having hard times with life right now….metal on..\m/..

The Right Thing to do is not Always the Correct thing to do!!

When you’re a little boy, you are taught to do the right thing. To make the RIGHT judgment of things, What is not right is justify as a bad thing and avoid doing it. Things that have morale and things that doesn’t harm another are to be accepted as the RIGHT thing. The good person is the one doing all the RIGHT things. The bad people are the one doing all the WRONG things. Very very simple, easy to understand and by nature it is perfect. But as I grew up and turning to be an adult.

How do you define RIGHT and what is WRONG?

Something that consider right to you may be wrong to another. People bombing the twin tower consider as bad, but in another angle of view point they are actually protecting something, protecting their pride? To me Purple may be my favorite color but to you? You may think purple is gay. Can you make a stand to state something to everyone if you think what you think is RIGHT? YES!! Only you thought, it’s only based on your point of view, true or not it’s just an opinion  and if that opinion is accepted by the group than it is consider the RIGHT thing.

In the corporate world I am living in right now, you can’t do the RIGHT things every time. If It is not correct, you may silent or pass if something you think is wrong and you may want to correct it. Because correcting something without knowing the consequences may lead to the ultimate disaster. You may be outcasted from the group, or be condemn.  Just think for a while, if you are lost in a jungle and found a small village of jungle people. They bring you in and they all are eating raw fish and hate eating cooked fish, you suddenly jumped out and tell them that they are eating the fish the wrong way and you introduce your cooking method to them, will they listen to you? I mean it is the right way to eat a fish, correct? But to them? You are consider saved by them and they accepted you in their village and now you are trying to tell them that they are fools and their way of eating are wrong? It is like spitting them in the face, it is their culture. Their believe maybe that fish are brought to them by the gods and wishes them to eat it raw, but you insulted them. You insulted their gods. You insulted their believe.

In the modern world, this situation exist. We thought that we are civilized, we thought we are on the top of the world. But we are not, we are still what we are 1 thousand years ago. We do all this to protect ourselves, We label the RIGHT thing that we consider RIGHT, we label the WRONG thing that we consider WRONG, WE . Where is the ultimate truth?

Who can ultimately judge what is right and what is wrong? 

Do we blame it to GOD?

I learn that we may only need to speak up when we are needed to, we do not need to tell someone he/she is right or wrong all the time, sometimes it is best to let them be. It will be better that way, for both parties, for everyone. If everyone in the world may hold this, there will be no war or arguments, There will be peace. But the truth is always NO. Human are born with a greed, which is the human’s ultimate weakness, even Lord Of The Ring stated Human’s weakness is Greed. The one that may overcome greed will always be happy and lead a better life and a humble one.

To survive, we need to learn when to use the so called RIGHT thing and stand for it. When it is important to use it and when it is not. 

You can do it.!! but Y U NO DO??!!

I am born into a great loving family, everyone will admit his or her family to be the best and greatest of all. Some may seems weird and odd to another but hey, What's weird? and what's odd? We only see things different when we cannot accept or comprehend, perspective of a different man may give you a different rating of one family's weirdness to another and always admit that he have a great family.
I was told many times by friends and also family members...."you can play and teach guitar, go get out of here(M'sia) and go somewhere else, NZ/Australia/wherever you may get a better life and better pay then what you can get here in M'sia. " I heard these same words again and again since i'm 18. Even my dad suggested this.
To answer them it's easy, i'm not the type that will be in a dilemma. I always make my on decision and a fast chump that decide very fast which mislead it to everyone that ask me questions. They seems to think that i did not make any effort in thinking and considering the questions but actually i have gone through it before they even think of suggesting to me.And i will always get the same feedback of my answers, Y U NO DO??? Y U SO WASTE??!! (in their heart i think and assumed that they are thinking that i'm stupid or have knowledge whatsoever)
But the truth is, this might have abit of clash concept because this is only my opinion and concept of my very own, i'm not saying that this are the rule and the correct way, if you guys that is reading and following my blog this far, i know that you are here to seek raw information and point of view from me, I thank you so much and if for you that get offended after reading this i'm so sorry in advance, remember this is only my opinion.
I do not seek for outstation work and stay because i think there's no need to. I'm born here in M'sia and i'm going to stay here even if a comet is goin to drop right next door. I love my country. I love Melaka. If i'm good enough i can make a living here, if i want to prove that i'm very good i can make a fortune here in this very place. They said that the economy is going down, the politics is corrupt , the whole place is goin worst, but for me...my point of view is..M'sia is growing, for a country to move forward and grow, these are the issues and events that need to happen. If we look at the advance countries, we look at how good and well the country is, but we did not go and find out how they become this way. How many president in USA is shot? No corruption in Japan? I'm lucky to be in a growing country where all the fun is rather than a stagnant place where everything is well done and can't go anywhere more, if you like peace and no fun you may be happy there. Anyway i'm a Malaysian, I can do whatever i want to do here, i mean the legal stuffs. I can have my own company here and it doesn't cost me high capital. I know the language here and other stuffs, imagine trying to open a company and do business in Australia? or London? can you survive? Unless you're Jimmy Choo. LOL!! You can only work as a middle class worker in other country than you're own unless again if you're JImmy Choo. LOL (again)
ONe more thing why i don want to work and live outstation, The high pay? no i don't think it's high pay when i don't get to see my family, if i'm a solo guy without anyone that i loved then i don't care what i do or where i am, but in reality, i have a family. A loving family, i wan to spend my weekends with my mum and dad, how long can a human live? if not for 80 years, how long can we spend time with them? another 30 years? 20, 10? if i'm aboard working and seek for a better life, how about them? My friend Raven put it so right,
Dad: Son, it is time for you to go out and learn ppl's life and work. You only have 1 life, you must make the best of it.
Raven: Yes, i only have 1 life, but i would like to take care of you and mum with this 1 life, coz it worth more than anything.

We only have 1 life, i want to see my brothers grow, i want to see them succeed, i want to be there for them. I don't want to be 500 miles away when they are down, when they blow their birthday cake. Being together worth more than giving a call from aboard saying Happy Birthday. I want to be there for my parents when they need me, i want to make them happy , i want to show them ... all the care and effort they put is worth... I'm a dad too.. i understand what a dad really want to see. I hope my son will succeed, i hope he will have a better life, Parents are so unconditional but what can a son do? Succeed and go away? come home for CNY? how many CNY can your dad survive? give money every month to them by paypal? As a son i try to think how to be successful and being with them here and now. This is what i'm spending my whole life working on. I want to be successful here, i want to be with my loved ones.
They said it's impossible, i say it is possible.

What the mind and conceive , The Mind can achieve.

People work so hard to earn money, i work so hard to be with my loved ones.

Different people, different walk of life, different perspective of life.

This is my Way of Life,

Protect My Pack, Grow my Colonies, Kill any enemies.

Charity for Balance

What have you done so far in your life? From your first work, your first accumulated money, from your first serves in society. Who do you think most? Who do you work for? Obviously most of the people will answer or in their hearts knew it is they themselves that is the most important one.

You work for yourself.

You work to have money, to buy or acquire things. Most of the people do nowadays. It’s no shame to admit but you can be proud to be doing.

I have been doing that for many years. I worked as hard as possible. I saved money as much as possible. I bought things that I want, and think of myself most of the time.

But I don’t feel satisfied. Why? I thought if I saved enough money to buy the things that I want. I can be happy but why this feeling? Why the happiness can’t last long? I can only be happy for no more than 1 day on a new purchased guitar. Why?

I have been searching for this answer for some time and now I knew. I still don’t understand 100% but I knew something is missing. Something is not enough. I read many success books that I can get, I hear as many audiobooks that I can get. I noticed something. Most of the books mentioned almost the same values with new or different points of view but they all didn’t miss this one thing. This one thing that I have overlooked. Such a simple thing.

“Charity”

If it’s not important, why Robert T of Rich Dad mentioned about saving $1 for investment , $1 for savings and $1 for charity?  Why all the rich men do charity? Why is it important for them? To us that wants to be like them but failed only follows what is seems important…. Accumulate money, budget, do not spend, get more assets… but they did not follow and do charity. They overlooked, just like me. But I have awaken, I have learned my lessons. I now wants to seek more information on this charity’s Magic. I want to study it. Learn the magic behind it.

Magic, I have told by a friend. Consider a wise man to me, he said that people do charity for many reason and the word itself serves many meanings. It may be in form of money, help & etc but it must be unconditional. A sincere one. It was to make a balance.

Balance.

We humans can’t  go for extremes, we will destroy/sabotage ourself. Once we get to extreme. We need balance. We live in a world of day and night,  We believe in Yin Yang. We need a balance. What we get , we need to give some out to seek balance. Balance.

I need balance……

I thought I can go for extreme. But I’m not born that way. I need to be human. What I need to do now is to make lemonade out of my given lemon….

Madman's Bubble ..act 1

What is life?

We have been searching for the answer of this question all the time…sometimes we got it..sometimes we think we got it, actually did we get it? As you Google around ..you may find that life is nothing but a word to describe a duration lived by a living thing.

So… we come to another question…. What is life for? Or What is the purpose of life?

Some Indian monk might tell you that the Purpose of life is a life of purpose…or something like like there’s no meaning to life…life is beyond meaning..life is what you live of it….Yes yes yes…. Clever stories we human will tell ourselves… motivate ourselves ….reason ourselves…..That’s what we human do….when we can’t accept the truth or find the truth we make something up to solve it. If we can blame the tools why blame ourselves for the fault and problems we have…Tools have no pride..humans do

We all came to the bottom end… I mean most of us… “life’s sucks” ,”I hate life” “I should have die when I was born”. Simple quotes used a million times a day from people all over the world…yet.. Some will end their life due to major depression.

We worked so hard, people earn and save so hard….yet die before they can enjoy the life they wished too….or wish they not? Procrastinating? They blame the sky taken them away as not fair…but is it they have taken things for granted? Like humans every questions have an answer….to motivate…to reason…. Is money that important? Or is it only a trend? Who create the trend? Humans? We lived by our own rules yet said the creator of another higher being that have set us all up?

Can we know what is happening tomorrow? Can we know next 2 years? Do we know the next minute?  We do not know, we can only predict….prediction is not reality… A great predictor is just as good as the past prediction assumed as a coincidence. What do you need to do? What is the truth?

What is REALITY? Death is not popular….cause we don’t care about it, we are afraid of it….. humans are afraid of what they don’t know…..Afraid of the dark…afraid of the unknown…That is why we spend our whole life searching for the unknown….conquering all we can have and see so we can have 1 thing in control… We want to control FREEDOM….

Is life ..Freedom?

Or we seek freedom in life?

If you have Freedom…Are you afraid?

What is right and what is wrong? Is black, black. Is white, white? Is Freedom, Freedom?

What is going on in a madman’s head? What is he thinking of? How is he thinking? What is his reality? Are we the same? Only that we have a common reality that linked us up? Are we mad on the madman’s eye? The madman’s brain? Can we think like him? Will we think like him?

Are you afraid?

Are you afraid of your life?

Are you afraid of your future?

Empty Your Tea Cup – Ego Eliminating

I have in my whole life searching and learning for more guitar skills and the whole music world, I downloaded, buys and asked many for this information. In the beginning I would say that I learn like a dry sponge soaking water from a water full tub.

And guess what? The graph of my learning got down peak, it got down peak so great it almost hit rock bottom!!!

Why?

I can say, during my school years it was easy and time was a little kind at that time, half days of school and no other commitments I have half the day through to learn practice the guitar. That was the golden age, my skill and knowledge multiply like an active spread of bacteria in a dead cow’s body….(what a metaphor…muahahahah). NOW, I can’t even learn anything new….okok, understood.. adulthood, fatherhood , husbandhood…etc etc etc 

STOP!!!! Get caught up?? Is That what I’m saying?

No, that is just a reason. An easy answer to cheat myself on believing the truth.  What is the truth? I have been looking for this a long time and I finally hit the spot. YES!!! Eureka!!! I knew this all along but why can’t I accept it? It’s only a matter of time when you put your commitment to search for something and it finally pops out!!

Listen before from Bruce Lee? You need to empty your cup of tea before learning anything new. If your cup is still full, the more tea flow into the cup the more the tea will overflow and be wasted. All the while I was learning from Guitar magazines and books downloaded are all wasted. My cup of tea wasn’t empty, I bring with me the ego when learning. I always learn like, I’ll skip this cause I knew it already or this is not important. That’s wrong, Repetition is the mother of skill.

This video will explain more

Actually the more you repeat in learning something and be very humble, learning 1 or 2 things from a book is more than enough. Now I will dust out all the old lessons that I miss all this time and put in into good use….

The Money Concept

To be frank, i stupid when it comes to money matters.

WHen i was in standard 3, primary school i was called up by a local magician showing the kids around with his lame predictable illusions up on stage. Then he told me that he is going to show me how he is going to turn 2 pieces of damn cheap toilet tissues into real money. He was going to give me the money, so he ask me to make a choice. Either RM1, RM10 or RM50.

I told him RM1, "HUH?" responded the magician . DO you really want RM1? he asked again.

With my spongebob eyes waiting for the excitement for the magic act, i nodded yes.

He then flip the tissues into a small pieces make a few Adacadrabra....POP!

the tissues are now the RM1, called me off the stage and get anothet kid up on stage...The other kid ended up with the RM50. My dad ask me, Why RM1?

I was curious why everyone is upset and mad at me because i choose RM1 instead of RM50.

They said i will have problems with money when i grow older. That time that choice was made for the love of the show, i was not aiming for the money but to witness the power of magic...that's all... so i'm wrong? I was curious with the adult's reaction on that day till now. Was it wrong for a pure kid to only really wants to enjoy the show and nothing else? Must every kid taught to be greedy in Money?

I my later teenage years and early adulthood, money became important. Whatever you need , needs money. Now your status in life is measured by money. I worked day & night for the accumulation for money hoping someday i will be rich.

RICH

What define rich? Having great wealth? Having RM1 billion in the bank? Having a BIG house and rockstar Car? IS THAT ALL CAN BE CLAIMED AS RICH?

As my life have the ups and downs like every other person, i began to analyse this so called RICH. Looks like if i would ever wans to come near to Bill Gates, even i work 2 jobs a day in this current state, I WILL NEVER BE 10% AS RICH AS HIM. NEVER

NEVER

= a word to describe something that will not happen at all.

RICH = can be measure only by money?

I was stuck.... I lost hope....I was never going to be rich as i calculated.

Then I realized...... RICHNESS is not only money....

MONEY IS JUST A MEDIUM

OUR Money in our pockets are actually borrowed loan currency by our country to some rich man.

Our Money is going down on value every time the clock ticks. Money is just an idea.

It's just a piece of paper believed that it's value by people.

Even if you have it, it's own by someone else....

I lived my whole life workin like a dog for this IDEA?

COme on man.....!!!!

Why don't i use this idea to my benefits?

I changed my mindset to money...

Money is not the one i work for everyday i'm at work workin my ass off.

I was doing for something else..... Some other richness i would say...

THINK & GROW RICH

Self-Realization > How Far Have you Gone?

I have experienced many times of realization that i'm a failure.

During my primary school times, i'm a boy with low self confidences and self esteem.

Born with 1 eye that can't really sees and a black ear. I'm always ashame of it.

I would hide myself from others and have only a few close friends.

I'm always the one getting the back sit and the one doing all the hard stuffs in class.(dust the blackboard, carry the chairs..etc..) I'm always the outcast of any group. No teacher care much for a boy that walks to school and have no character.

During that time, even i have a few friends i doubt they really are my friends. Maybe they are just using me to help them buy food or buy stuffs that require you to stuff in a crowd.

Even i knew it, i play along. 10 years old boy, i needed friends.

During my secondary, i got beaten up in the first week of schools by bullies. I have no friends that time. I was alone with new classmate that ran when the bullies came. I hide from them every lunch time in the library. Always afraid to go to school.

In my 21st year, i always have problem gaining new friends or meeting adults. I always have the feeling that they will look bad at me.

I can't make it...I care too much of what people think about me.

Even i can play the guitar, my low confidences is to much that i'm afraid to let people knew i can.

Until 1 day,

I woke up in the morning, A sunny Sunday morning. Birds chirping.

I opened my eyes and i started to Realize....

I started to see what i failed to see....

Everybody is the same...

Everyone is afraid....

Everyone that i thought is ahead actually is not...

Everyone that i'm afraid of them actually they are afraid themselves....

What is keeping me down and low is myself....my own mind....

If i don't love myself...how do you expect others to love you?

If you don't believe in yourself.... who is going to believe you?

If you don't give yourself confidence ...... who is going to give you?

God? Higher Being? The Titans? Thor?

No one is going to ... But yourself...

After that morning... i told myself...

Now nobody is better then you....

You're always NUMBER One...

Until today.... the puzzle came more and more that the people that i thought are great last time is now actually more poor than me.

It's like i suddenly step on a confidence booster pedal....

I felt so good now....

Don't believe?

Try me

Transformation 101 > Wake Up!!

2 years Ago, i'm doing very good.

I got a great job in a Big US company, earning quite alot for an average Malaccan, i'm not married, i don't have any car or house loan to commit, and to add on, i have a second job that earns sometimes more than my day job. I think if i can recall i'm earning about 6k a month after tax. To a normal 25 years old guy, that's alot. No commitments, i have the 6k all to myself. i have no insurances at that time coz my company have it covered for me. I drive a car that has already being paid fully.

Imagine what you can do with 6k every month. A lot ya? i bought guitars, effects , beers , alcohol and alot of stuffs that make no sense. Money is a lot. I got no clear plan. I spend like running the tap water.

Question....

DO you think i'm happy? (at that time)

???????????????????????????????????

No

No

No

I am not, i spend my time working. 9 hours of day job and 3-4 hours second job, 7 days a week , 30 days per month. No holidays. No rest. No relax. No family time. No wank time.

At first everything is good. Money is coming in. My bank account is exploding. I got new guitars and gadgets.

Later, my body reached it's limit. I got sore backs that don't recover. Dizzy heads a night.

My mind reached it's limit. I'm stress all the time, tensions and i can't think clearly.

My relations reached it's limit. I often fight with my Girlfriend, i don't know my family anymore.

My job reached it's limit. I can't spend quality time on a task, i can't spend quality time with a student.

My life reached it's limit. I hate my life, i dont know what is the meaning of it. I spend after job hours in a club drinking beer and liquer.

I don't feel Rich even i have more money.

I don't feel success even i have everything people wants to achieve.

..............................................

I have everything i need to have in this community, Yet i hate my life.

CONFUSE?

I Am Confuse at that time.

I Lost The "Cita cita" I have before i done this.

I have forgotten myself and let trend control where i need to go.

Sad story.....

I'm sad, i wanted to quit. I wanted to Die.

Death solves this. Death solves everything.

Do you think I quit that EZ?

The Cybernetic Gorilla Did not Quit.

I'm planning to get out of this circle. I want to be Free.

Lucky enough my company have a reading campaign going on.

The first book i read after 5 years of school , the only time i read.

Who Moved My Cheese? (The cover is the first pix above)

Totally make sense. My view in life begin to widen.

I now see things i didn't see before.

I know now this is not going to Continue. My day job will end, my second will end.

If i don't search for new formulas in life, i will end up like every common guy on the streets.

As my behavior, i will look for more books as this one ignites me.

"there will be more of this"

The second book, The Monk Who Sold His Ferrari.

I than realize, that i'm selfish all along. All i think about is myself.

I spend 200-300 RM for beer daily and i'm giving my mum 100 a month?

I spend all the time thinking about myself and i don't even care about my girlfriends' feeling?

I don't even know how old is my brothers?

I treat my house like a hotel?

The Third, The alchemist.

Now i know i don't always have to do what other/common people do.

I need to listen to myself, do what matters to me , not the trend.

I need to do things that i believe and take the risk and go into the dark area.

Dark area creates new opportunities.

I am now over that....

I now have a more meaningful life.

I'm happy, I love my Life.

My family & friends love me like i love them.

Every RM matters.

Every job matters.

Even if i earn 2k a month, I'm Rich.

The Human Weakness > Body Limits

Human = Most intelligent being in this planet?

We can do anything, go anywhere.

Break speed limits and all those awesome stuff.

But for sure, everything has it's weakness.

Do human have weakness?

Yes We DO!

Imagine you have planned a system to achieve your goal.

In order to get 100000kg Gold you need to dig 400000 kg of rock for exchange.(just an example)

You have everything worked out, all you need to do to achieve 400000kg of rock is to dig.

so? You start digging....

To dig 400000kg of rock you will need 2000hours.

Can you dig straight 2000 hours? without stopping?

(let's just say we cut the techno a side on this)

You will cause you will get to the Gold faster, but CAN you?

Your body has it's limit, you get Tired after 4hours, you need food to fuel your energy.

That's the catch.

To study for an exam of a certain subject all you need to do is read and study the books.

Why need 1 week to study the whole book? Why not 24 hours straight?

Body limits, mind limits.

You get tired.

Tired makes you stop

Tired makes you think negatively on stuff you started off positive

Tired makes you wanna sleep

Tired makes you wanna quit

If there's only a way for me to Prevent this weakness.

I'll be on top of this world looking to the sky and shout

" GIVE ME YOUR BEST SHOT!!!"

Listen And You Become

Asian Culture, the rich get richer. The poor Gets more poor.

I read a book that i should have read years ago.

Rich Dad, poor dad. by Robert Kiyosaki

Makes me realized some very critical point in my life.

Last 3 years ago.......

I'm earning more than i should have but i don't feel rich.

I can save more than 60% of my income even i spend them overly. I do the usual.

I work a day job and have a second. Put effort in the second and get a raise on the first.

I sacrifice My time. I sleep less. My family time was cut. I don't have time to do what i enjoy doing which is playing the guitar and recording my music.

Ok, i can be consider rich.

BUT................ I dont feel rich.

I felt the same, i still drive the same car. I still live the same life.

Later on, i get stressed out. I hated my life. I hate to work all the time.

WHERE IS MY TIME?

I spend money on beers and hanging out in clubs. I than spend money like running water out the tap.

After a few years. I realize 1 time. I don't feel rich because i don't consider myself rich.

That's all. Even i have money, i still am a poor guy. That's what i am inside. My mindset.

Poor Guy's mind.

So...?

To be rich , you first need to think rich. That's all.

Think......

Then the action.

Think......

Only can you feel rich when you get there.

Think......

Why i dont have that mindset?

I'm a chinese guy from a working class family. My parents. I love them very much but still they have poor money education. They struggle with money all their life.

They are poor in mind. I'm from that family, what else that i'm programmed to think?

If i listen to them, i'll end up like them.

To be great you listen to the great.

To be a Great guitarist playing the Lydian scale, you listen to Steve Vai.

It's Simple.

Everything is simple now.

I just need to listen to rich people.

And most importantly. I use my brain.

I think, i make differences, i now dont just follow.

I make decisions. Everyday. Either to be rich or poor with every Ringgit i have.

I dont wanna do the " Study hard and get a job"

I wanna " study smart and get money working for you"

Traditional Way don't applied in this time. The ways are already more than 200 years old.

2011.

Internet is here, everything change. So as the way people should live their life.

The way they think about money.

Money = currency.

Currency = you don't own all the ringgit you have.

It's always own by someone to someone

The Balance > Of Life > In this Time

Balance......

simple 7 alphabet word that means everysides are of equal value.

It's easy to understand yet so hard to do.

I'm a musician trap in a corporate rat race life. Why i was in the company in the first place?

MONEY

Another trap from the world. Money keeps you IN the rat race.

Money let you think of security.

Everyone seeks security, the world trap people by letting them seek security.

Weak point.

Because balance is hard to obtain and being kept, people lessen the sides of balance.

Basic life balance pattern.

Work Vs Life

8 hours vs 16 hours(9 hours assumed that sleeping cost you 7 hours)

High life balance pattern.

Morning work vs Second job vs family life vs social life vs own life

8 hours vs 3 hours vs 3 hours vs 2 hours vs 1 hour vs 7hours(sleep)

The more you break it, the complex it's going to be.

Notice that after the breaking, all effort are mainly focus on making money.

Later social life can be cut and put to second job, and later own life's 1 hour. Then we will use the 7 hours of sleep.

Who is selfish one in this picture?

WOrk

Work time never gets cut.

Why?

Why everyone is afraid of cutting work's time.

That is like the main object's that slowing you down, making you can't do any other things.

Because of Security?

Cutting Work time is A big Challenge.

I like BIG challenges.

Do you?

I'm in a real world.

I hate gray answers.

I hate Gray areas.

I hate Phonies

FATE > Your own Destiny?

DO you believe in Fate? Not faith. FATE.

Means everything is written, your life IS Written.

Everything you do is pre-done. You just walk the life that is designed for you.

I thought about this when i was 16, come to a point i ask myself. So what i really want to do with my life, i can't do it if it's not written in my FATE? No wonder lots of teenager commit suicide after asking themselves this question. For me that time, i once thought of suicide but i got another side of me that seems to have another point of view. That side of me is furious, I'm 120% angry at this so called FATE. Fated to be, or what ever stuffs they say.

Lucky i got a book from a temple, Liao Fan's 4 lessons to change and decide your own destiny.

I started reading it and glad that there are people that concern about this FATE thing and try to analyse it and come up with solutions.

The whole idea behind the book is that everyone determine his or hers fate/destiny. It seems that human normally blame everything that they can't achieve because of first try or lack of effort given to FATE. Human created this FATE to answer all that they don't understand or lazy to know. It's easy and comfortable to blame it on fate and blind ourselves.

After reading i made a lot of thinking.

Ok, if FATE is something/rule. Meaning it can always be break. So i set my life differently that day, i do and think only what i think i true and make senses to my brain. I don't go for life counting, meaning reading your future or stuffs that is similar. I make my own life, i walk it i plan it like a man from the future.

FATE , i look at the sky and tell him in my thoughts. " What you design i will break to what i want personally" "Try Me!"

Moods in Modes

I have trouble learning what they called modes on the guitar, i know they are essential in my playing simply because i don't want to sound like the others cause i ran out of cool things that others can't do. So i came across the word modes in guitar playing. I know i was to apply while playing through changes in a Jazz concept and i learn and memorized the names and fingering and octaves on the fretboard but i failed to understand them. I somply don't know what to you with them.

I tried so many ways learning them, with Frank Gambale's Modes no more Mystery . It became worst. After 2 years of study i decided to drop them modes and would just play solo's with the major and minor scales that i knew. Frankly , i felt bad. Every time when someone ask me about modes i felt my heart crying that i failed to understand them. Well, as always my desire kept me facing my failures. I decided to learn again, i say to myself " I will use up all the ways that end up won't work and then i'll find out the ways that will behind" inspired by Thomas Edison's Quote.

I soon discovered that the modes are in the major scales , they share all the same notes. SO what the heck that made them different? This time i'm investigating rather than learning what is given. Modes are about moods. Each modes gives you a different emotion when played. Ah ha...

Now i'm beginning to see the purpose of modes.

The overall mode of one gives you a different story. Lydian is mysterious , Ionian is happy and bright, Dorian is lazy and after that i completely understand the whole concept of modes in a snap.

Playing music is about expressing oneself, i failed to be sensitive on my musical side yet i uses my way of learning in academics to understand it. Music is natural, what you feel is music.

Cheers....!

Widen my Guitar Persona

I was holding a 100plus can walking and taking sips. My friend, was too walking but he had a bag with a bass drum pedal in it and a small bass drum made out from milk can. WE were headed to his house, it's a small room in the flats. Old flats. All this while i was staying in land houses, so i got the experiences of how people behave when they share a rooftop. The stairs was ultimately dirty and the smells or urine everywhere. I was wondering, how can anyone stand leaving here? Cost of life increased, to stay in a land house the rent is at least RM400/month that time. It was 1999.

The flat look some-kinda like this in the photo but not this one. walk climbed up to the 4th floor. He opened one of the doors and enters the house, i followed. I followed him home because he said his father wants to meet us, he told his father that we started playing music and his father happens to be a great drummer for some police band. He was a driver to some lawyer then. He was interested to meet us to offer some advise. At that time i don't think i need advise, cause i'm covering Metallica's tunes and i'm already learning to solo HEAVY METAL style, how cool was that? Ego runs through me every minute.

His father, long face with curly hair. I shake his hand and introduce myself.

Without hesitation, he ask me "How do you play over a min7 chord?" . I was first stunned because no one have ever questioned me any music related question all this time except for grade 4 music lessons in school where they would ask about crochets and semi quavers. Secondly, I don't have an idea , even a hint or clue what a min7 is. Pawned to my root i kinda mumble a bit. to save my cool cause i was wearing an Iron Maiden T and black nails. After the mumble moment he knew i know nothing about his question. He told me, by playing only power chords and looking cool you only represent a guitar player from "Kampung". The word Kampung is from a Malay word, it means rural or redneck. Meaning to be, you are not going to go anywhere with that knowledge. "Frog underneath a Coconut shell"

He then got up and went to his room, i was still feeling very bad. Because for all this time, music and the guitar have been my life achievement, now everything i did and put effort on are just worth 10 cents?

Later he came out and showed me this book.

But at that time, it was a photocopied version.

JAZZ GUITAR.

I never thought of Jazz to be a genre i would step into, it's old mans music. An excuse i made up because i really don't understand and don't take time to understand it.

Do you think only Open chords and power chords you know is enough? ok then tell me what constructed the major chord/ minor chord / what is a dominant 9th? Everything strike me as a lightning. I don't know. I really don't know. It seems that the world is so big. IT"S HUGE.

There are so many stuff than Metallica. He then told me, "Son, i proud of what you showed here to me, you didn't convinced me anything that you know. Heck you don't even make a sound. You just sit there with your brain full of question" Normally a teenager would fight back about Jazz being boring and I don't need to listen to you, I own my music." "You sit there showing me that your now realized that what you know now is enough, there's more, And i'm here to teach you how. I might not be a guitarist but i can show you how to be a musician. With your humbleness i know you will be a great one"

For some reason, i smile back at him. I now know music is a journey, an aventure in my life.

As long as i'm living, i'm learning music everyday if i kept my secret weapon on. My humbleness in knowledge. I was never a showoff.

TIME - Enough is 24hours/day?

Time flies? So many things to do, so little time? 24 hours a day not enough?

I always heard about time, not enough time. Always so much thing to do, to me i realize that we are in complete control of time. Time doesn't wait but we can plan ahead right? Invest a little time to plan then we can utilize time to it's fullest. The problems always start within ourself and as nature do we blame them problems on others. There are always excuses about anything that we do wrong. It's time to take all the blame, embrace all of it and improve ourself. Time is always there to teach us, teach us to appreciate , teach us to be consistent and effective and help us improve and realize that life is too short to go on lying ourself and wasting it.

Time is mind sucking, the more you worry about time you waste time worrying. We only have afew years to live , why not using it to it's fullest? doing only what matters to us most, cherish our love ones, and find ourself without regrets during our deathbed. Happy to leave this world with our legacy.

80% of results comes from 20% of your actions, i always respected time. I honor them, i will go early for classes or gathering even i know if the others will be late, i don't do it to impress the others, i do it because i respect time. In the end it's only you and time. Others don't matters anymore.

With no particular reason i wanted to start back on my own blog posting, really, no particular reasons. I just wanted to blog. As i now spend more time blogging my companies' blog, now i wanted to have another side of where i can post just about anything, that's what the blog's intended to be right? okok.

Why catcher in the Rye cover as my image on this returning post? Just come to think about it that the whole corporate thing is a phony. "Phony" that's what Holden said, being not mature. They said of him. Everything he don't understand or dislike, he phony they. Not mature thinking? maybe. But i guess he is ok. Adults are mostly phonies to me, since i'm in a whole full of adults now. I started of respected them, you know how they brain wash you when you're little. I always thought of them to be very capable in their own fields. But it's a fantasy.

Yes i agree. Phonies. God Damn Phonies. Maybe not all of them but a 80% full of crap phonies that pretend to know something but actually knowing crap about it.

OMG, i can't help to think about god damn phoners. They infest all the positions in the corporate ladder and make the real ones work their ass off.

If i have a chance, just 1 bloody chance. I will burn all of them.

BURN.