Madman's Bubble ..act 1

What is life?

We have been searching for the answer of this question all the time…sometimes we got it..sometimes we think we got it, actually did we get it? As you Google around ..you may find that life is nothing but a word to describe a duration lived by a living thing.

So… we come to another question…. What is life for? Or What is the purpose of life?

Some Indian monk might tell you that the Purpose of life is a life of purpose…or something like like there’s no meaning to life…life is beyond meaning..life is what you live of it….Yes yes yes…. Clever stories we human will tell ourselves… motivate ourselves ….reason ourselves…..That’s what we human do….when we can’t accept the truth or find the truth we make something up to solve it. If we can blame the tools why blame ourselves for the fault and problems we have…Tools have no pride..humans do

We all came to the bottom end… I mean most of us… “life’s sucks” ,”I hate life” “I should have die when I was born”. Simple quotes used a million times a day from people all over the world…yet.. Some will end their life due to major depression.

We worked so hard, people earn and save so hard….yet die before they can enjoy the life they wished too….or wish they not? Procrastinating? They blame the sky taken them away as not fair…but is it they have taken things for granted? Like humans every questions have an answer….to motivate…to reason…. Is money that important? Or is it only a trend? Who create the trend? Humans? We lived by our own rules yet said the creator of another higher being that have set us all up?

Can we know what is happening tomorrow? Can we know next 2 years? Do we know the next minute?  We do not know, we can only predict….prediction is not reality… A great predictor is just as good as the past prediction assumed as a coincidence. What do you need to do? What is the truth?

What is REALITY? Death is not popular….cause we don’t care about it, we are afraid of it….. humans are afraid of what they don’t know…..Afraid of the dark…afraid of the unknown…That is why we spend our whole life searching for the unknown….conquering all we can have and see so we can have 1 thing in control… We want to control FREEDOM….

Is life ..Freedom?

Or we seek freedom in life?

If you have Freedom…Are you afraid?

What is right and what is wrong? Is black, black. Is white, white? Is Freedom, Freedom?

What is going on in a madman’s head? What is he thinking of? How is he thinking? What is his reality? Are we the same? Only that we have a common reality that linked us up? Are we mad on the madman’s eye? The madman’s brain? Can we think like him? Will we think like him?

Are you afraid?

Are you afraid of your life?

Are you afraid of your future?

Empty Your Tea Cup – Ego Eliminating

I have in my whole life searching and learning for more guitar skills and the whole music world, I downloaded, buys and asked many for this information. In the beginning I would say that I learn like a dry sponge soaking water from a water full tub.

And guess what? The graph of my learning got down peak, it got down peak so great it almost hit rock bottom!!!

Why?

I can say, during my school years it was easy and time was a little kind at that time, half days of school and no other commitments I have half the day through to learn practice the guitar. That was the golden age, my skill and knowledge multiply like an active spread of bacteria in a dead cow’s body….(what a metaphor…muahahahah). NOW, I can’t even learn anything new….okok, understood.. adulthood, fatherhood , husbandhood…etc etc etc 

STOP!!!! Get caught up?? Is That what I’m saying?

No, that is just a reason. An easy answer to cheat myself on believing the truth.  What is the truth? I have been looking for this a long time and I finally hit the spot. YES!!! Eureka!!! I knew this all along but why can’t I accept it? It’s only a matter of time when you put your commitment to search for something and it finally pops out!!

Listen before from Bruce Lee? You need to empty your cup of tea before learning anything new. If your cup is still full, the more tea flow into the cup the more the tea will overflow and be wasted. All the while I was learning from Guitar magazines and books downloaded are all wasted. My cup of tea wasn’t empty, I bring with me the ego when learning. I always learn like, I’ll skip this cause I knew it already or this is not important. That’s wrong, Repetition is the mother of skill.

This video will explain more

Actually the more you repeat in learning something and be very humble, learning 1 or 2 things from a book is more than enough. Now I will dust out all the old lessons that I miss all this time and put in into good use….

The Money Concept

To be frank, i stupid when it comes to money matters.

WHen i was in standard 3, primary school i was called up by a local magician showing the kids around with his lame predictable illusions up on stage. Then he told me that he is going to show me how he is going to turn 2 pieces of damn cheap toilet tissues into real money. He was going to give me the money, so he ask me to make a choice. Either RM1, RM10 or RM50.

I told him RM1, "HUH?" responded the magician . DO you really want RM1? he asked again.

With my spongebob eyes waiting for the excitement for the magic act, i nodded yes.

He then flip the tissues into a small pieces make a few Adacadrabra....POP!

the tissues are now the RM1, called me off the stage and get anothet kid up on stage...The other kid ended up with the RM50. My dad ask me, Why RM1?

I was curious why everyone is upset and mad at me because i choose RM1 instead of RM50.

They said i will have problems with money when i grow older. That time that choice was made for the love of the show, i was not aiming for the money but to witness the power of magic...that's all... so i'm wrong? I was curious with the adult's reaction on that day till now. Was it wrong for a pure kid to only really wants to enjoy the show and nothing else? Must every kid taught to be greedy in Money?

I my later teenage years and early adulthood, money became important. Whatever you need , needs money. Now your status in life is measured by money. I worked day & night for the accumulation for money hoping someday i will be rich.

RICH

What define rich? Having great wealth? Having RM1 billion in the bank? Having a BIG house and rockstar Car? IS THAT ALL CAN BE CLAIMED AS RICH?

As my life have the ups and downs like every other person, i began to analyse this so called RICH. Looks like if i would ever wans to come near to Bill Gates, even i work 2 jobs a day in this current state, I WILL NEVER BE 10% AS RICH AS HIM. NEVER

NEVER

= a word to describe something that will not happen at all.

RICH = can be measure only by money?

I was stuck.... I lost hope....I was never going to be rich as i calculated.

Then I realized...... RICHNESS is not only money....

MONEY IS JUST A MEDIUM

OUR Money in our pockets are actually borrowed loan currency by our country to some rich man.

Our Money is going down on value every time the clock ticks. Money is just an idea.

It's just a piece of paper believed that it's value by people.

Even if you have it, it's own by someone else....

I lived my whole life workin like a dog for this IDEA?

COme on man.....!!!!

Why don't i use this idea to my benefits?

I changed my mindset to money...

Money is not the one i work for everyday i'm at work workin my ass off.

I was doing for something else..... Some other richness i would say...

THINK & GROW RICH

Self-Realization > How Far Have you Gone?

I have experienced many times of realization that i'm a failure.

During my primary school times, i'm a boy with low self confidences and self esteem.

Born with 1 eye that can't really sees and a black ear. I'm always ashame of it.

I would hide myself from others and have only a few close friends.

I'm always the one getting the back sit and the one doing all the hard stuffs in class.(dust the blackboard, carry the chairs..etc..) I'm always the outcast of any group. No teacher care much for a boy that walks to school and have no character.

During that time, even i have a few friends i doubt they really are my friends. Maybe they are just using me to help them buy food or buy stuffs that require you to stuff in a crowd.

Even i knew it, i play along. 10 years old boy, i needed friends.

During my secondary, i got beaten up in the first week of schools by bullies. I have no friends that time. I was alone with new classmate that ran when the bullies came. I hide from them every lunch time in the library. Always afraid to go to school.

In my 21st year, i always have problem gaining new friends or meeting adults. I always have the feeling that they will look bad at me.

I can't make it...I care too much of what people think about me.

Even i can play the guitar, my low confidences is to much that i'm afraid to let people knew i can.

Until 1 day,

I woke up in the morning, A sunny Sunday morning. Birds chirping.

I opened my eyes and i started to Realize....

I started to see what i failed to see....

Everybody is the same...

Everyone is afraid....

Everyone that i thought is ahead actually is not...

Everyone that i'm afraid of them actually they are afraid themselves....

What is keeping me down and low is myself....my own mind....

If i don't love myself...how do you expect others to love you?

If you don't believe in yourself.... who is going to believe you?

If you don't give yourself confidence ...... who is going to give you?

God? Higher Being? The Titans? Thor?

No one is going to ... But yourself...

After that morning... i told myself...

Now nobody is better then you....

You're always NUMBER One...

Until today.... the puzzle came more and more that the people that i thought are great last time is now actually more poor than me.

It's like i suddenly step on a confidence booster pedal....

I felt so good now....

Don't believe?

Try me

Transformation 101 > Wake Up!!

2 years Ago, i'm doing very good.

I got a great job in a Big US company, earning quite alot for an average Malaccan, i'm not married, i don't have any car or house loan to commit, and to add on, i have a second job that earns sometimes more than my day job. I think if i can recall i'm earning about 6k a month after tax. To a normal 25 years old guy, that's alot. No commitments, i have the 6k all to myself. i have no insurances at that time coz my company have it covered for me. I drive a car that has already being paid fully.

Imagine what you can do with 6k every month. A lot ya? i bought guitars, effects , beers , alcohol and alot of stuffs that make no sense. Money is a lot. I got no clear plan. I spend like running the tap water.

Question....

DO you think i'm happy? (at that time)

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No

No

No

I am not, i spend my time working. 9 hours of day job and 3-4 hours second job, 7 days a week , 30 days per month. No holidays. No rest. No relax. No family time. No wank time.

At first everything is good. Money is coming in. My bank account is exploding. I got new guitars and gadgets.

Later, my body reached it's limit. I got sore backs that don't recover. Dizzy heads a night.

My mind reached it's limit. I'm stress all the time, tensions and i can't think clearly.

My relations reached it's limit. I often fight with my Girlfriend, i don't know my family anymore.

My job reached it's limit. I can't spend quality time on a task, i can't spend quality time with a student.

My life reached it's limit. I hate my life, i dont know what is the meaning of it. I spend after job hours in a club drinking beer and liquer.

I don't feel Rich even i have more money.

I don't feel success even i have everything people wants to achieve.

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I have everything i need to have in this community, Yet i hate my life.

CONFUSE?

I Am Confuse at that time.

I Lost The "Cita cita" I have before i done this.

I have forgotten myself and let trend control where i need to go.

Sad story.....

I'm sad, i wanted to quit. I wanted to Die.

Death solves this. Death solves everything.

Do you think I quit that EZ?

The Cybernetic Gorilla Did not Quit.

I'm planning to get out of this circle. I want to be Free.

Lucky enough my company have a reading campaign going on.

The first book i read after 5 years of school , the only time i read.

Who Moved My Cheese? (The cover is the first pix above)

Totally make sense. My view in life begin to widen.

I now see things i didn't see before.

I know now this is not going to Continue. My day job will end, my second will end.

If i don't search for new formulas in life, i will end up like every common guy on the streets.

As my behavior, i will look for more books as this one ignites me.

"there will be more of this"

The second book, The Monk Who Sold His Ferrari.

I than realize, that i'm selfish all along. All i think about is myself.

I spend 200-300 RM for beer daily and i'm giving my mum 100 a month?

I spend all the time thinking about myself and i don't even care about my girlfriends' feeling?

I don't even know how old is my brothers?

I treat my house like a hotel?

The Third, The alchemist.

Now i know i don't always have to do what other/common people do.

I need to listen to myself, do what matters to me , not the trend.

I need to do things that i believe and take the risk and go into the dark area.

Dark area creates new opportunities.

I am now over that....

I now have a more meaningful life.

I'm happy, I love my Life.

My family & friends love me like i love them.

Every RM matters.

Every job matters.

Even if i earn 2k a month, I'm Rich.

The Human Weakness > Body Limits

Human = Most intelligent being in this planet?

We can do anything, go anywhere.

Break speed limits and all those awesome stuff.

But for sure, everything has it's weakness.

Do human have weakness?

Yes We DO!

Imagine you have planned a system to achieve your goal.

In order to get 100000kg Gold you need to dig 400000 kg of rock for exchange.(just an example)

You have everything worked out, all you need to do to achieve 400000kg of rock is to dig.

so? You start digging....

To dig 400000kg of rock you will need 2000hours.

Can you dig straight 2000 hours? without stopping?

(let's just say we cut the techno a side on this)

You will cause you will get to the Gold faster, but CAN you?

Your body has it's limit, you get Tired after 4hours, you need food to fuel your energy.

That's the catch.

To study for an exam of a certain subject all you need to do is read and study the books.

Why need 1 week to study the whole book? Why not 24 hours straight?

Body limits, mind limits.

You get tired.

Tired makes you stop

Tired makes you think negatively on stuff you started off positive

Tired makes you wanna sleep

Tired makes you wanna quit

If there's only a way for me to Prevent this weakness.

I'll be on top of this world looking to the sky and shout

" GIVE ME YOUR BEST SHOT!!!"

Listen And You Become

Asian Culture, the rich get richer. The poor Gets more poor.

I read a book that i should have read years ago.

Rich Dad, poor dad. by Robert Kiyosaki

Makes me realized some very critical point in my life.

Last 3 years ago.......

I'm earning more than i should have but i don't feel rich.

I can save more than 60% of my income even i spend them overly. I do the usual.

I work a day job and have a second. Put effort in the second and get a raise on the first.

I sacrifice My time. I sleep less. My family time was cut. I don't have time to do what i enjoy doing which is playing the guitar and recording my music.

Ok, i can be consider rich.

BUT................ I dont feel rich.

I felt the same, i still drive the same car. I still live the same life.

Later on, i get stressed out. I hated my life. I hate to work all the time.

WHERE IS MY TIME?

I spend money on beers and hanging out in clubs. I than spend money like running water out the tap.

After a few years. I realize 1 time. I don't feel rich because i don't consider myself rich.

That's all. Even i have money, i still am a poor guy. That's what i am inside. My mindset.

Poor Guy's mind.

So...?

To be rich , you first need to think rich. That's all.

Think......

Then the action.

Think......

Only can you feel rich when you get there.

Think......

Why i dont have that mindset?

I'm a chinese guy from a working class family. My parents. I love them very much but still they have poor money education. They struggle with money all their life.

They are poor in mind. I'm from that family, what else that i'm programmed to think?

If i listen to them, i'll end up like them.

To be great you listen to the great.

To be a Great guitarist playing the Lydian scale, you listen to Steve Vai.

It's Simple.

Everything is simple now.

I just need to listen to rich people.

And most importantly. I use my brain.

I think, i make differences, i now dont just follow.

I make decisions. Everyday. Either to be rich or poor with every Ringgit i have.

I dont wanna do the " Study hard and get a job"

I wanna " study smart and get money working for you"

Traditional Way don't applied in this time. The ways are already more than 200 years old.

2011.

Internet is here, everything change. So as the way people should live their life.

The way they think about money.

Money = currency.

Currency = you don't own all the ringgit you have.

It's always own by someone to someone